Enough Rope to Hang Myself, Part 3

Enough Rope to Hang Myself, Part 2

Followup to Enough Rope To Hang Myself 

Enough Rope To Hang Myself, Part 1

The beginning of the time in my new apartment by the creek was sketchy. And I’d rather not go into the details, but I was still being pressed and oppressed by the evil minions but less often, though still intense, almost palpable. I had apparently been followed by them, if you know what I mean.

 In the meantime I watched videos on YouTube whenever I was home and into the night before I fell asleep of various preachers preaching the word of God. Even in my car I listened to the Bible preached on CD. I listened to old Yolanda Adams songs which I’d bought years ago.

I couldn’t seem to listen to anything else. I’ve since become more discerning in who I listen to for various reasons, but as I said in Part One, no preacher’s perfect, no Christian is perfect; we all have our blind spots. But as long as I have somebody preaching the word of God in my ear, preferably out of the KJV, I’m okay.

Honey, I’m Home…

Again I say I would rather not go into detail but for quite some time, maybe, I don’t know about six months or so? I still felt their presence even in my new apartment, though not nearly as often or obvious as at the house that I had just left, but still sometimes very intense, even palpable. I had been hearing preachers say that the devil goes even more strongly after those getting closer to God and knew that was happening.

This is when I learned the power of the name of our Lord Jesus Christ in driving out the minions. This is how I know the Holy Bible is real and Jesus Christ is real, because I learned through direct, again, palpable experience, that the beautiful name of Jesus Christ is the only name that drives them away.

I prayed nonstop, and listened to preaching or the Holy Bible audibly, or sat down and read it myself (I still do usually daily though I miss some days).

 A New Beginning

I was (am?) what they call a “recovering Catholic”. Twelve years of Catholic school and we never even looked at the Bible that I can remember. The closest we got was something called a “missal”.  I think it had verses in it (from the Catholic bible) with Catholic prayers to Mary and other saints.

Then I started looking for local churches to attend that used the authorized King James Version of the Holy Bible. I found two churches and chose one which I liked and really loved and still do love the people. I told the pastor a short version of my story of harassing dark spirits, which I appreciated that he didn’t question, and asked to be baptized.

He was kind enough to accommodate me during a Sunday service and it was very exciting and everyone there who had been saved for many years was happy for me. That was eight months after I got saved, and I was delighted. The certificate I received still hangs on the wall with a plain wooden cross next to my bed (in the past I’d hang a crucifix).

 I don’t attend church regularly anymore, though I did for a time. The whole thing feels too Catholic to me, though, again the people there are lovely and made me feel more than welcome, for which I’ll always be grateful.

Going My Way?

One afternoon about eight months after I’d moved, when money problems loomed larger than anticipated, I happened to be in the neighborhood of the house I’d left under those strange circumstances and, as I was parking the car, guess who suddenly appeared in her SUV? My old Buddha-worshiping landlady. She was all smiles.

After the exchange of pleasantries, she told me she was moving out of her house in the back (the one with the meditation room her husband had built) and did I want to move in? The rent she was offering me was exactly perfect for what I had just got done telling someone if only my rent were that, I’d be doing well. It was as if she’d heard me because it was the exact amount! Hmm…the devil is enticing…. Always.

She said there’d be no application process because she’d (obviously) already had me as a tenant for five years, that she had one other possible prospective tenant but preferred to have me there.

Don’t Walk Away, Renee’

After much, and I mean much deliberation, and coming really close to taking her up on it because of money problems, I prayed to God to guide me in the decision. It was similar to the dilemma I’d faced moving into my new apartment when I had to decide upstairs or down (see Enough Rope to Hang Myself, Part 2). I just couldn’t decide.

Then I remembered how it seemed that God had picked my new apartment just for me, out of the way, in the back (a real pain for visitors) and all the trees and deer right outside my window. My safe haven away from that crazy woman and her dark spirit minion-filled house(s).

How could I walk away from God’s gift, His hand lifting me out of the mire and  placing me gently on safe ground? How could I leave that, for a mere couple of hundred dollars difference in my rent every month? Don’t worry about the money, I kept telling myself, or was that the Holy Spirit?

Snake Eyes

To placate myself (and her, because she did pursue me) I went over to see the place and the changes she had made. I’m glad I did because God showed me, not only by how I felt being there, but in some of the little things she said that told me I would not be happy there.

Then when she showed me the sump pump under one of the closets, that did it. I’d  had spooky experiences in another house (that’s another story I won’t bother to tell) with a sump pump. So I took in everything I saw and everything she said, and went home and thought and prayed.

God must have been tired of my indecisiveness. (my problem was that I thought God was giving me the gift of a place I could much better afford, but I’m learning that the devil plays tricks and tries to act like he’s giving you a gift when it’s a piece of cheese in a mousetrap). So while I was trying to decide if this was God or the devil bringing me this, God finally said, Okay, watch this:

And just for the heck of it I typed in sump pump online and came up with a woman (who just happened to be Christian) who had a blog (and a husband and three kids) and told a story of how five snakes had entered her house one by one and were all in the kitchen. That was it (Enough Rope To Hang Myself, Part 1).

That Name

When I read the books The Beautiful Side of Evil and The Light That Was Dark (both listed along with others in Enough Rope To Hang Myself, Part 1) I realized how the name of Jesus is blasphemed and used by ungodly people and devils to trick people. So sometimes I’m extra clear in saying my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ of Nazareth who died on the cross for my sins and was risen three days later by God the Father when praying for God to chase them; I want to make sure these harassing devils don’t get a chance to be tricky.

But to wrap this up now, slowly but surely they left (though I feel them trying to get back in sometimes and when I do I loudly proclaim the name of Jesus Christ to scare them away). “Resist the devil and he will flee.” I resist him by calling on God, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

God Shall Give His Angels Charge Over You, to Keep You in All Your Ways. ~ Psalm 91:11

God’s angels watch over us and are more powerful than the devils and will drive them away every time. (Turning the light on doesn’t hurt either.) After a while it stopped though, as I said, every now and then something makes me think they are back, strange happenings without explanations. But nothing like the way it was back at the old house or even here when I first moved into this apartment with the creek and the deer in the back.

I’m happy to announce it’s very peaceful these days. Now, as I said, I did take a nasty fall three weeks ago now and it could have been an attack like the old days. One minute I was walking down the stairs and the next minute I was airborne. But it’s okay because God protected me. As bad as it was, it could have been much worse.

God’s will is perfect and I have to be willing to accept it no matter what, trusting his perfect plan that I’m too small to see.

Yoga, Shmoga

 I know I’ve been making enemies speaking against the wonders of yoga and meditation, and I didn’t go into it as much, but visualization, positive thinking, and “relaxation exercises” which are forms of yoga by another name are dangerous, too.   

But I’d rather know that even one person was helped by reading this information and my experience than worry about being popular or how many people follow my blog. Just the way I found the books and videos listed in my previous post (Enough Rope To Hang Myself, Part 1) when I needed to, so perhaps will someone find this post, if it be God’s will.

Resist the Devil and He Will Flee from You ~James 4:7

Again I say, stay away from yoga. Stay away from meditating, unless it’s on the word of God. In the West the word meditate used to mean to think and ponder something, but from the East we’ve learned meditation is emptying of the mind, leaving it wide open so that all kinds of nasty things (spirits) can crawl in from dark places. Don’t do it.

If you need to stretch and move your body, that’s fine, no problem, but don’t do any yoga poses. It’s all worship, worship of Ba’al by any name, like Shiva, like Shakti, there’s a whole list, Nimrod, Diana, Jupiter, on and on it goes (it would take a whole other article and more to cover that). It’s not the God of the Holy Bible and it will lead you to hell on earth and even eternal hell if you don’t finally turn to Jesus Christ and follow Him.

Once you do, the Holy Spirit will cause you to beg God’s forgiveness, and turn from your old ways. Little by little you will find yourself changing in the direction of God. Read the Bible, cover to cover. And when you’re done, read it again, and keep reading it. I’m on my fourth reading in three and a half years, and I keep finding new things which the Holy Spirit of God shows me that I didn’t notice before.

 The Closer I Get to You

And pray. The closer you get to God, the closer He gets to you.

My life’s peaceful now for the first time in many years. I’m not plagued anymore by endless unhappy and weird events, even life-threatening ones (falling down the stairs notwithstanding), or Twilight Zone-type neighbors.

I think the staircase flight may have happened because every day I get closer to God, even starting this new blog and writing these posts. The devil doesn’t like it. But you know where he can go. Aside from the staircase debacle I am blessed, my family is blessed. I trust God.

Thank you for listening.

God bless you and your family.

Enough Rope To Hang Myself

 Man’s goings are of the Lord; how can a man then understand his own way?

~ Proverbs 20:24 

Anything of the Lord means He’s behind it, which means He wanted it for reasons unknown to me.  God’s will is what God wants.

“Man’s goings are of the Lord; how can a man then understand his own way?”  This really helps when I sit here wondering, Why the heck did I do that?  Say that?  or What’s my problem?

Good or bad, God’s got a reason, which I may never know, for everything that happens.  It’s not always so clear why a thing had to happen.  But there are times when I look back where I can see why a certain thing had to happen, because if it didn’t, then the other thing that happened wouldn’t have happened, and so on.

Derailed

We all know the old stories of somebody who yells in frustration because he missed the train, only to learn later that it derailed and everyone on board was killed…and similar such stories.  It’s not always quite that dramatic, but it can be.

I have lots of stories like that—no train derailments, thank God—but…well, let me tell you about a string of happenings to give you an idea of what I mean. A list of events (not exhaustive, but enough) where I didn’t “understand my own way” but know now that my “goings” were of the Lord because of where they led me.

What If…

You’ve heard of “what-if” theories.  They use them in economics, politics, and various other fields of study, so please allow me to use the “what-if” concept here to help me expound on my above comments (without going into long, but, dare I admit, true stories).

Okay, here goes:

What if my hands became disabled several years ago, and what if I couldn’t work? And, what if, as a result I lost my house (and everything else)?  And what if I turned to “spirituality” and became an expert on the New Age, meditation, yoga, emptying my mind, even on learning Sanskrit?

And what if yoga meant yoke (it does), and connect with (yup) and what if I did.  

Then, what if I started to get tired of sadness and heartache and blamed it all on God because He used us as pawns and cared not for our trials and pain?

What if I read countless books on going deeper within myself, like The  Sacred Self by Wayne Dyer, and so many others?  What if I meditated for long intervals and opened my mind to the so-called Oneness “out there”?

Then, what if loud bangings over the living room ceiling at night started (when I knew there was nothing overhead but the roof and the stars).  What if a lot of mice came, strange mosquitoes and flies that didn’t fly but stayed attached to one place for long hours, and what if all my flowering plants which I’d nurtured for years before I’d moved in, both inside the house and outside, got attacked by some unknown creeping crud and died?

And what if my computer started turning itself on in the middle of the night, with someone talking loudly or even screaming?  And what if the car radio turned itself on once while I was driving and then again after I’d turned it off?

And what if a snake showed up in my yard?  And what if I almost got killed by a huge truck while in my little car on the way to work?  And what if the day after that, I came home and found my formerly healthy, beloved dog dead?

Looking for Comfort

And what if I later turned on YouTube desperately looking for my Vedanta guru named Mooji, a Jamaican man living in India who used to be a Christian, who I’d set my alarm for at 7 am on my day off to watch him online live.  Now, I was looking for comfort in his words for the heavy grief I felt for my sweet dog, my buddy of twelve years.  I did find something Mooji said briefly, on Guilt, of which I had plenty.  And yes I hung on his every word.

But then what if I clicked on, of all things, a Christian preacher while going through YouTube?  I won’t say his name, it doesn’t matter.  (You’d know him; he’s not perfect; none of us are; but I’ve since learned he does know how to expound on the King James Bible, unlike many.)

Surrender

I was the type who ran when I saw someone come near me with a Bible who was going to tell me to repent because the end was near.  As an ex-Catholic, I had always believed in God, but in the midst of turmoil, had gotten very angry with him and had turned away (a joke, right?  the pot yelling at the Potter?).  My New Age spirituality had become my new solace.

Okay, so what if I listened to this online preacher for at least a half-hour and what if he said, If you have nothing left to lose (or words of a similar vein), stand up and ask Jesus to help you.  Tell Him you believe in Him.”

What if I stood up from my chair, right on the spot where I’d found my lifeless pet-best-friend, and what if I finally gave up.  What if I just gave up and sobbed my eyes out, body slumped, barely standing, and said, “Jesus, I don’t know anything, but if You are who this man says you are, then You are what I need.  Please help me.”

Happy Birthday

Then what if the next day was my birthday and for a birthday present I got an eviction notice from my landlady (her daughter wanted the house I was renting).

That was three and a half years ago.

I still can’t write her name here, my beloved dog, or even talk about her without getting choked up or outright crying.  The apartment I found (another string of what ifs, maybe for a Part 2).

Man’s goings are of the Lord; how can a man then understand his own way?

~ Proverbs 20:24 

The Lord had me go through my “goings” and later I understood my own way that I had followed, outside of God’s wings of protection. I was committing the sin He hates the most, worshipping other gods, but without realizing what I was doing, and He had mercy on me, but I had to suffer first, then see the light.  The Cross before the Resurrection.  Baptism into His Holy Spirit.

Yoga, meditation, and emptying of the mind promised to yoke me with the gods and even become god myself.  Well, it worked, but what they neglected  to tell me is the “gods” are just dark spirits, the devil’s angels.  I got too good at what I was practicing and they moved in on me and my life, first slowly, then overwhelmingly obviously.

The Real Question

So the big question became: What if I got so good at my “practice” of yoga and meditation that I connected and yoked with every dark spirit in town.

Well that’s just what happened, but apparently God saw fit to punish me for my ungodly ways, then gave me enough rope to hang myself (almost literally).  Who knew?  (I pray for Mooji that he will return to his Christian roots.)

The apostle Paul said, “…forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.”

~ Philippians 3:13-14

That’s me.  When I moved I tossed all my books, CDs, and DVDs regarding the new age and yoga and the Self.  I didn’t burn them, but I didn’t sell them or give them away, either. Just threw them in the trash where they belong.  I don’t dabble in even the slightest bit of it anymore, and continue to press toward the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

I’m Not the Only One!

Here are some excellent books written by those who underwent similar experiences:

I believe all the books listed here are available in both paperback and eBook or PDF.  I realize this is a controversial subject and many will insist that yoga is just exercise, but I ask you to read, watch and listen to the following with an open mind (but don’t open your mind TOO much!   :- )

Suggested Readings:

  1. Death of a Guru: A Remarkable True Story of One Man’s Search for Truth  (formerly published as Escape into the Light), by Rabindranath R Maharaj with Dave Hunt, 1977, 1984.
  2. The Light That Was Dark: From The New Age To Amazing Grace, by Warren Smith, 1992, 2005.
  3. Out of India: A True Story About The New Age Movement, by Carol Matrisciana, 2008.
  4. The Beautiful Side of Evil, by Johanna Michaelsen, 1982.
  5. The Seduction of Evil: Spiritual Discernment in the Last Days, by Dave Hunt and T.A. McMahon, 1985, 1986.

Videos (the best two of the four videos I had saved, have since been deleted…hmm…), but I’m sure there are new ones out there I haven’t seen yet.  Here are two:

  1. Yoga and The Emerging Church, a Dave Hunt interview
  2. Yoga and the Occult: Ex Witch Tells All, a woman named Beth tells her story

Avoid yoga and keep pressing toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus who saved a wretch like me.  Hallelujah and Amen!

Thy Will Be Done and Not Mine.

Only by pride cometh contention: but with the well advised is wisdom.”                                                                                                                                                           ~ Proverbs 13:10

Whenever I’m angry or even slightly irritated with someone or some situation (i.e., when I am full of contention), if I look with brutal honesty within myself, I’ll see that it’s my unfulfilled desire to have something my way that’s bugging me in that moment.  This goes for the important things as well as the tawdry annoyances of  daily life.

And unless I remember that it’s “Thy will be done” and not my will be done, any desire I have that’s not coming as I wish it would, is pride before God, plain and simple.

The second half of this verse reminds me that if I stay in my Holy Bible I will stay “well-advised” and therefore gain the wisdom of God and be reminded that with pride comes contention, because whatever’s causing my upset probably falls into one of these three categories:  “…the lust of the flesh,…the lust of the eyes, [or] the pride of life,” which are “not of the Father, but…of the world.”  ~ 1 John 2:16